Whats up Xangaroos!???
Wow...so it has been like a month and a half since I last posted. I JUST CAN'T DO IT SOMETIMES....sorry.
But I miss everyone so much. How is everyone doing?
I'm so blessed! 
So much has gone on...I went to Vegas back in the beginning of August with my Mom, and now I am working, going to school, I have a wedding to go to at the end of this month, and then next month, and then next year, etc....
I dropped my classes for like 2 days last week when I decided that I just "couldn't deal" with graduate school right now. But then I thought about it and was like, "I don't have any kids, I'm not married, I'm not tied down to anything...". Now is the PERFECT time to go to school. So I re-registered.
Its so easy to let personal things in your life dictate what you are going to do, how you are going to feel, how you are going to react....when all of the STUFF that happens is irrelevant....it matters that you get the lesson and react like He would.
A couple of weeks ago something hit me.....With God, I am a great person all by myself if I am following his purpose and what he wants for me....and that means that all of those things that I thought dictated who I am, and what I was going to be, are irrelevant to MY LIFE with Him that He wants me to lead. I don't need anyone's approval to be the ME that he made me to be. I don't need to chase someone around to show them how much I care for them. And I certainly don't need to Prove myself to anyone who isn't God. Its amazing how even your closest friends can surprise you, forsake you, accuse you of things that aren't even relevant and take you for granted. And yes...it makes me sad, it makes me angry, but.....take me or leave me.....I'm His child and I'm not going to change unless its for Him. But there are still yet so many people that God works thru that help to pick you up when others have forsaken you, that are there to catch you when you fall. Even the ones that are there to pick you up, will sometimes let you down....and its ok. We are all trying to find the way....
The people in my life are so wonderful and are so blessed!
....Even the people that turned their back on me over time.....at least some of them have the BEST intentions in mind...and that comforts me. And I love them.
I will continue to love people whether they like it or not. Thats never going to change.
I am a woman of God.
...all I can do is continue to love others with all that I have in me, but to continue to love myself in the process.......
I want to continue to do that.
I feel so peaceful.
God is soooo good.
Right now I am in the computer lab of the school and this dude is sitting in the back of the computer lab with headphones on....but he might as well have his stereo blasting in here because I can hear EVERYTHING he is listening to.......
But anywayz...isn't it horrible whats happening in New Orleans? Bush ain't doin a damn thing with the relief efforts!
Its hard to believe that 2 months ago I was down there running the streets...and now its nothing but water.
God is good. Things are good.
holla at ya girl...I'll try not to be a stranger!!! | 
luv ya Jay!
